Friday, July 31, 2009

I am just ME!


I ran into a a "former friend's" 5 year old at Summer Spectacular...he embraced me and said..."My mommy hates you but I still LOVE you Miss Janean!" . . .

Out of the mouths of babes.

I have found that through this unfortunate journey we have traveled - either people stand BESIDE you or they feel they are ABOVE you...to me - this is a sad reality.

I am okay. It does not bother me.
I am better for living the life God has had for me!

ME...
I am a child of divorce. I am no less than you.
I grew up with an alcoholic parent. I am no less than you.
I do not hold a college degree. I am no less than you.
I have witnessed death. I am no less than you.
I have miscarried 11 babies. I am no less than you.
I have an 18 year old son who is brain injured and an addict. I am no less than you.
I have a 6 year old son who has special needs. I am no less than you.
I have been broke. I am no less than you.
I have been homeless and hungry. I am no less than you.
I have been sick. I am no less than you.
I have gone without. I am no less than you.

My once divorced parents are now remarried. I am blessed.
I learned about alcohol abuse and did not chose this road for myself. I am blessed.
I have a degree from the University of Hard Knocks - "free tuition" - I am blessed.
I watched loved ones die and became stronger. I am blessed.
Although I had many losses I have FOUR boys. I am blessed.
Taylor has challenges, we can help others who walk this road. I am blessed.
Turner is "special" and we overcome challenges together. I am blessed.
I may not have money but I am rich in life's experiences. I am blessed.
I know what it is like to be without a home and food - appreciation now comes tenfold for the small things. I am blessed.
I am not dying. I can deal with my health. I am blessed.
I have an appreciation for the small stuff in life - a love for things like friendships - not material objects. I am blessed.

I am Janean, no less than you - no better than you.

We are different and for that we need to admire, appreciate and treasure our contributions to each others lives.

Harbor no resentment, hold no guilt, foster love and cultivate the richness of each person God brings into your life.

You will only become better for doing so.

xoxo
Janean