Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Family Dynamics, Oh So FUN!

Kids...will be kids!

Have you ever felt like you were sinking in quick sand?  Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you tried - it wasn't good enough?

I tell you - kids can make you question your sanity!  I think that kids are just not made like they use to be!  When I was young I had a huge level of respect for my parents that is sorely lacking in my household today.  I don't know what I have done as a parent to warrant the disrespect that my now 19 and 14 year old sons display.  They see nothing wrong with copping attitude, talking back to us and using "trucker" language in our home.  

I use to think of my family like a quilt.  Neatly pieced together with lovely pieces - each different, but when all put together they were a stunning piece of work.  

Now my quilt is old and worn.  Pieces are torn, tattered and unraveling.

Can this "Family Quilt" be repaired?  

I am not sure.  Some of the pieces are so tattered and torn that piecing them back together will never work.  Some pieces are newer and can be carefully taken care of so that they will not suffer the wear and tear that the others have.

I feel that no matter how hard I have tried to take great care of my quilt, it has suffered the test of time and has come apart despite my efforts.

All I can do is pray that God can bring healing to the tattered pieces of our family's quilt and put some hope into it so that it will last for generations to come.

I am feeling very worn out as the Holidays approach.  I have not shopped for the kids, no decorations deck our halls.  My little guys both have Celebrations at the same time on the same day and I can't split myself in two.  They both want me to be with them.  But how?

Trenton got his report card today and he is doing worse.  He is now failing not two but three classes.  I am just at my wits end.  This is the age and stage where we "lost" Taylor.  He slipped from being our innocent little boy into a wayward, rebellious teenager.

I want to save Trenton from traveling this road, but don't know how.  I can't "get in his head" and know what is making him tick.  

Family dynamics, Oh So FUN!

I pray that we can settle down and have a nice peaceful Holiday with the Family.  Extended family is coming to town, both my brothers and their kids.  The cousins share a strong bond and for that I am thankful.  This brings me so much joy.

This is all I need.  Watching the love exchanged in my "quilt" will bring me all the joy I need this Holiday Season!

I hope your "family quilt" is not tattered or torn, but crisp, vibrant and a lovely site to behold!