"God's Timing". I have heard that all things happen in "God's Timing". I have been frustrated over the years as to grasp that concept. I know that all things happen for a reason. I am learning that God's Timing really has nothing to do with our timing. I think God has an entirely different clock than we do.
I have learned to wait and be more patient. In this "I want it all and want it now" society that we live in today it can be a really difficult task to "wait on the Lord".
Recently I have not been feeling so strong. I have had moments of weakness where I have let my mind take over and get the best of me. Our minds are a wonderful thing, but can also cause us a great deal of distress. I find myself questioning decisions I have made. Dreaming of what could have been, what is not and what may never be. This as you know is not the most productive mindset.
I am living in Irvine in the neighborhood that I lived in when I was in high school. I pass by places that hold wonderful memories for me of times spent with my family and friends of days gone by. I miss those times when my life was so simple. All I had to worry about was me. No husband, no kids. It is easy to daydream and wish for just a moment that I could run back in time. Oh, the things I would do differently. Things I would not say, things I would be sure to do. Things then that were so important would not be now. Priorities would be so different. There is a reason that time moves ahead and not back.
All three are wonderful in their own right. All three we wish we had more of.
I am thankful that I have been richly blessed with people who care about me and my family. I am blessed to have been able to reconnect with friends from my past. I have had people placed in my life at just the right time to offer support and love just when we need it most. I have had "old friends" who have not cared and complete strangers who have shown us love.
There are people who come into your life and then go and you wonder what the purpose was. I know that God knows what he is doing and all things work together for good. Man, He is complex. You can't figure God out! I can't wait to ask Him a question or two when it is my time to meet my wonderful maker!
People are hard to figure out too. You have people in your life that you wished cared more. You have people who care too deeply. You have people you long to spend time with, but never get to. There are relationships that blossom and those that are like a thorn in your side. All put into your life for a reason. God's reasons. We are not in control. Never have been, never will be.
I give all the glory to God and continue to ask for His favor and His blessings upon our family. I know he is in the driver's seat. I just need to learn how to sit down, hang on and enjoy the ride!