Friday, October 9, 2009


Being Stuck

Have you ever felt stuck?  You know the feeling - like being stuck in the muck and mud.  Unable to move or if you are able you don't get too far. 
I feel that way now.  Stuck.

My husband is stuck in a job that is going nowhere but downhill.  He is a talented individual, meticulous in his craft.  He is one of the hardest workers I have ever seen.

People who have seen his work say "Oh!  He is SO talented - he should have no trouble finding a job!"  Yes.  I know.  Easier said than done in this economy where the unemployment rate here in California is nearing 11%.

So if you know of anyone hiring in the area of remodeling - or know of someone in need of work - here is Stace's Website:

I have scaled back everything I can think of.  

No internet.  (if you know of a service that is affordable - let me know!!)  Bare bones cable and phone service.  Drive back roads to avoid toll road fees.  Scaling our car insurance down to the bare minimum.  Coupon clipping.  No eating out.  No entertainment.  No manicures, pedicures or brow waxing.  No salon services.  No car washes.  No shopping.

If anyone has any other ideas on how to save - please shoot me an email!  I am stuck.  I do not know any other ways to save what little money we seem to have.

RENT.  It is our biggest expenditure.  Going from $2250 to $1550 we thought was great.  Now just trying to maintain $1550 a month is hard.  I do not think we could all live in a one bedroom.  The law does not allow it.  We are currently six people in a 900 sq foot space.  Two bedrooms, one with 3 beds.  One of my sons sleeps on an air mattress in the living room.  I have been looking for something less expensive and have found nothing.  I hate to get the kids established in new schools only to move them again.  Stuck. 

During the year after my husband's accident we got help financially from the State.  Now with California going broke those benefits are no longer.  We do not have health insurance and do not get help with food.  I have been looking for a job and the amount I would need to pay in after school childcare for my 2 youngest is astronomical.  It makes it a no win situation.  Stuck.

I have to be able to figure something out.  It keeps me awake at night.  I think about it all day.  HOW can I improve our quality of life?  I want my kids to be healthy and happy.  I want to be emotionally here for them.  I can not afford to be consumed with stress and wonder.  I do have hope.  I am just STUCK.

I know the Lord's timing is at times - slow.  We want it and we want it now.  I want answers.  They do not come.  I know - have patience.  Have hope.  I am trying.  I promise.

I do give God praise.  I praise that we live in a beautiful town.  I praise that my kids love their new schools.  I praise that we live in southern california and are not so far from our church.  I just do not want to lose this.
I am trying to be proactive and stay one step ahead. 

We have fallen.  We got up.  We don't want to fall again.  I do not want to be STUCK.

So if you have any resources you can share, any ideas - I am all ears.  We are better together!

Maybe you can get us out of the MUD!



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